No Words

No words i could sit here for so many hours and try and think of something to film or write but it will all come out the same way in so many tears i cant speak just speak for myself but i know my siblings and family's heart are hurting so much but i want to thank you all for all the love you have given my family and all the love you send to our hearts at this difficult time. i cant write so much without trying not to cry but its easier to do this then to film a video I'm sorry for anyone who is asking for any videos or vlogs its just really hard to do at this time.

 loosing a mother and a brother is such a close time is so hard its never easy to loose just one person let alone loose two people that mean so much to your heart, to they were so much to so many people your heart beast so fast when you think of them and we will, you will, think of them all the time around the holidays it gets hard but family is life, family, is love, family is a bond that will never be broken. no mater what.

talk to yous guys soon and remember don't ever forget to smile. i love you.

Im Still Here, inside and out.

 It's insane that parts get ripped apart and ruined. Did you know that things sometimes aren't easy to find when you loose them? I know it's tuff for people to find them.

  But did you know I'm great at finding things? Really I am in my friends and family I'm know for it you loose something I'm the master at it like boom here it is I found it! There like whoa your great and amazing I'm like it was easy. Yeah easy it is for me. 

 I have no clue why I told you that story but I think I do Because I'm me. I am lost, and need someone who's great at finding things like me? I'm here but floating, not like a root beer float or a boat but like a person in a river in a water fall not like Pocahontas Because I can't swim but like the little bird or a rock, rocks can't float so yeah you get it? 

 I'm right here though I'll be fine I have my tough days like you all even when I'm super happy there's so much going on but it's not my place nor is it right for me to move a jenga piece. But you know what? I'll be okay and so will you all its not like this roller coaster will stay down for so long I'll fix it with help I have tools and so do you. Okay? I love you and don't forget smile.